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WATCHING.

BY MA. H. S.

"The sentiment which has consecrated night as a peculiarly spiritual season, may not be a delusion. And who shall say that then the departed may not visit us, unseen by our mortal vision, yet mingling as realities with our dreams; or unknown, though not unfelt by us, touching, as they pass, our wakeful and thoughtful souls!"---E. H. CHAPIN.

Alone I watch in the silent room,
Awake, alone, in the midnight gloom;
The sleepless eyes that wander round,
Can nought discern in the darkness bound.

With heal pressed back in the cushioned chair,
Head that aches with its weight of care;
I muse while the clock is ticking slow,
Of one gone hence in the long ago.

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ONLY ONE WOUNDED."

BY MRS. CAROLINE A. SOULE.

"No letter for you, this mail." The post-master spoke kindly, for he knew she was a soldier's wife, and he knew, too, by the rapid, eager words with which she had addressed him, that her whole heart was on her lips.

She stood for a moment in silence by the window, a great tear-drop settling on each pale cheek.

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"Was there any news, last night?" 'Not much-none of any consequence. Some of our Iowa boys have had a little brush with the guerrillas, a few miles from Cape Girardeau come off finely, too captured the whole lot-never lost any on our side-only one wounded.

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Do you know what company the woman's breath came in gasps. 'Company D, 16th Iowa."

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She had been pale before-she was like snow, now. Did you learn the name of the wounded? My husband is in that company." "I did not. It was only a telegraphic We shall probably get despatch. the particulars Monday evening."

"Three days to wait-O, God," and she wrung her hands and set her teeth convulsively, and leaned her head against the panelling. Then, gathering up her energies by a mighty effort, she passed quietly out of the office, and with quick steps turned off the square, and into the street that lost itself after a little while, on the prairie. She did not pause till the town was far behind her. till her feet rested in a little hollow which shut her out frem all things save the sky and her own thoughts. There she sat down and there she gave way to her long-repressed feelings. She wept and wept those scorching tears, which burst rather than stream from one's eyes, when the agony of suspense is in the heart.

Only one wounded-I wish he hadn't told me for three long days, now, I shall worry for fear it is he. How can I live till Monday night. O, dear, dear, dear! Wounded it didn't say where !

O, if I only knew!"

And then she wiped off the blinding drops, and crawling out of the hollow, looked eagerly over the vast prairie, as though with her soul in her eyes, she would annihilate space, and peer at once into that far-off hospital.

A mother's instincts drove her on again with fleet steps towards that little brown speck in the distance. She had left four children there, alone, and the oldest had seen but seven years. So she went on, wiping away the fresh tears that kept surging up from her heart, and trying to calm herself with the idle words, repeated again and again, "perhaps, after all, it wasn't John."

How much she suffered through those long three days, I can guess, though I did not see her; for once in my own life did I suffer from Saturday night till Tuesday afternoon was spent, waiting, waiting, waiting hoping, fearing, weeping, and all the time driving at the hardest kind of

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toil to lash away the slow-moving hours. had dropped her head upon the table in a O, God! the agony of suspense! It is dead swoon. worse than the worst reality! The soul accepts the blow when it has fallen cepts it, though it make it reel for a time, well nigh on to the grave-but till it falls, while yet with terror-stricken eyes it sees the uplifted hand, it shrinks, shudders, crouches, sways to this side and to that, its hope but little better than a blank fear, its prayer only a dunb moan.

Through the eager crowd gathered in and about the post-office, the next Monday evening, Mrs. M. made her way with little trouble. They knew she was a soldier's wife; they knew her husband had been in the last skirmish; they knew she had walked three weary miles over the lonely prairie to hear the news.

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Can I bear to write of what she sufferaced afterward, when they had kindly cared for her and carried her home, and when she had read the letter which her husband had dictated. No, no, no. It curdles my heart only to think of it. That right hand which had touched her so tenderly in the days of courtship, which had held her so firmly in the hour of marriage, which had labored so diligently for her in the eight years of their wedded life! Nevermore would its fingers intertwine with hers in the grasp of love stroke her forehead when the hour of pain was on never write her another long, sweet letter-never. And those four lit tle ones! A father's right hand would never again rest in holy blessing on their heads; and there was the baby, born since he went away! And they were poor, too! a little farm upon the prairie all they had, and that needed the daily la hor of a man's right hand. Would a soldier's bounty, would his monthly pittance compensate for those nerves and sinews that the surgeon had carelessly tossed out of the window.

"Any letter to-night, Mr. S.?" she fa rly shook in her shoes.

"The mail is not distributed yet, but if you will walk into the back room, you may read my 'Register,' till I get through. I'll let you know if there's a letter."

He passed her the newspaper, and one of the men kindly opened the door for her, and the clerk brought her a lamp.

She held the paper nervously, for full five minutes, then tore off the wrapper, and ran her eyes up and down the columns. Nothing on the first page. She opened the sheet.

Further from Cape Girardeau-full particulars of the late skirmish with guerrillas-our troops victorious.'

The large capitals swam before her eyes her eyes so misty with fear. She calmed herself, she hardly knew how, and read one word by word. It was good news all along till the concluding paragraph.

We came off without the loss of a single man, and only one seriously wounded. A private, John M., had his right hand so seriously shattered that amputation was necessary. But he is doing

well."

"A letter to-night, Mrs M.," and the post-master himself came out of the office, and with a pleasant smile on his face, walked towards the table. But no eager hand was outstretched. The soldier's wife

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Ah, it is only when we pick up the little records of these dreary times, loop together the slender black threads of woe, that we realize what a pall covers our country. All that Mrs. M., my neighbor, suffered through those three long, weary days of suspense, was suffered, was suf fered also, by sixty-five troubled women, for there were that number of married men in Company D., and none knew to what particular private that "only one wounded," had reference; then think of the fathers and mothers, and sisters and brothers, and sweethearts of the young men, for that "only one wounded "might be their son, their brother, their lover. Ah, as I said to a friend, the other day,

we shall never, never know the hundredth part of what this war has cost us. How many ears grow weary listening for footfalls whose tramp was hushed in the gory stream of battle; how many eyes grow dim looking for forms that lie buried in some shallow trench; how many hearts go aching for loved ones who shall never more come back, or if they do, come "maimed for life." A hand, an arm, a foot, a leg, perhaps an eye, the prizes of a battle-field. O, the darkness and the gloom of homes that once were happy! O, the cruel blight of war! that falls not only on the soldier, dead or wounded, but so sadly on his precious household - his wife and little ones!

LIFE.

BY ANNA M. BATES.

Tossed like a rent and rainbow shell,
From Time's upheaving ocean foam,
Forevermore the soul will tell

Of heaven, its native home,
Of brighter lights and softer airs,
· Of feelings that are half divine,
Arising upward in our prayers,
Like incense from a shrine.

This life is an unquiet thing,

We strive, we toil, we struggle on,
We drink at every wayside spring,
Until the last is gone;
Till on the desert hot and bare,
With weak and fainting frame we sigh,
For cool palms waving in the air,
And pleasant fountains nigh.

We walk amid our fellow-men,
Amid them all, and yet apart,
A hidden angel's fluttering wings,
Still stirring in our hearts;
We pause to weave forbidden dreams,
We bow at altars formed of clay.
We radiate with fancy's gleams,
The flowers that decay.

And this is life! to love, to part,
To go through earth unsatisfied,
To feel the vision that we clasp,

Not that for which we sighed;
To bear with cold neglect and scorn,
To meet a foe where smiled a friend,
To see the loved to silence borne.
O, can this be the end?

Nay; for this life is but a ray

Shed from a fixed and steady star,
Awhile it gleams on life's rough way,
While clouds its splendor mar;
But bursting from the veil of sense,
Beyond the glory light shall fall,
In God's unerring recompense,
Forever on us all!

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Torino-Ride about town-Departure by rail to Susa-Tragedy de la capot-Passage of "Mont Cenis," at midnight - An arctic scene-Through Layoyard district-From St. Jean de Maurienne to Geneva by railwayArrival-Out of door life.

Before leaving Turin we took carriage and made a circuit of the city and its environs, which, in the clear, bracing air and bright sunshine, proved a pleasant and invigorating excursion, aside from the many objects of interest, and the fine view which a part of our ride furnished. Turin lies in a green, basin-like vale, formed by the semi-circular sweep of an Alpine chain of mountains, through whose fertile fields the rivers Po and Dora wind their sparkling waters; the scene from a bridge,. spanning the latter, was quite charming, while the drive through the spacious wellbuilt streets of the interior of the town,the sight of its public edifices, and institutions of benevolence and education, gave satisfactory proof of the progress and prosperity of a people far in advance of their southern brethren in intelligence, thrift, and liberality of thought and purpose.

Not remaining to participate in the festivities of the evening, for which such extensive preparations had been made, we left Torino at 6 o'clock, by rail, to Susa, by way of Mont Cenis" pass, expecting to reach Geneva the following evening. At the railway office we encountered an elderly woman who, bidding adieu to her

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son, (a young man employed in some mercantile house at Turin,) was starting alone for Paris. Finding that we were going a part of the journey on the same route, she made herself acquainted with Monsieur and Madame, and as there was much that was amusing and unique in this new human subject for study, thus presented to our notice, we soon found ourselves greatly interested in her ladyship.

benevolence was the precious dust offered by the gruff-voiced old lady, to Monsieur and Madame, and what real pity expressed on her face, that the strangers could not enjoy with her, the enlivening comfort of a generous "pinch" every three minutes, which was about the average space be tween these pleasant little operations. Finding that we had neither acquired this common practice, nor a perfect knowledge of her native tongue, naturally enough, the Receiving an addition to our party in old lady began to look upon her two comshape of an honest-faced country girl of panions,-whom Providence had thrown uncertain age, we were soon seated vis-a- in her way, as little more advanced than vis in the railway carriage, waiting for the inexperienced children, in other respects train to move on. A moment before also, and it was intensely amusing to see leaving, however, the old lady started up with what hearty good nature she took in an agony of alarm, crying out like a upon herself the task of endeavoring to child in a fright. What could be the amuse us in every possible way that betrouble? was the woman going mad of nevolence could suggest-with lively ges grief, with parting from her son? Some tures, smiles, nods and such little talk as direful calamity, surely, had surely come she thought suitable to our state of adolesupon her! In another instant our fears cence, se endeavored to beguile the way, were relieved, when with frantic gestures, pointing our attention to every outside obtears and cries, she ejaculated, "Ah! ject, from "le feu" of the engine, which Mon Dieu! Mon Capot! Mon Capot! we were passing, to "les Alpi," whose fancy this descent from high tragic to the white cloud-like outline skirted the evencomic! Country girl, full of sympathy, ing horizon. And all in such a motherly rushes forth from the car, and, in less time way, apparently dictated by a friendly dethan the scene could be described, flies sire to contribute to the happiness of her back holding the missing garment trium-charge over whom she had assumed the phantly in her hand!-back, just as the office of protectress. train commenced moving off, to the intense joy of the owner of the article, who was as profuse of her thanks, tears and gesticulations, as she had previously been of lamentations, when the prospect of crossing "Mont Cenis," without the protection of her weather-worn cloak, filled her soul with such frantic grief.

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Then followed such friendly chatting and snuff-taking, between the two, that it was happiness enough for Monsieur and Madame to sit as spectators of the scene, witnessing with no small amusement, the workings of that queer machine, "human nature! We wondered if, in our enlightened America, the like real politeness, ("Benevolence in trifles!") would have been shown upon a similar occasion! Such respect for age, and such sympathy and help for a stranger in trouble? Who can say?

With what an air of grace and friendly

The old lady's costume had evidently not been selected in the vicinity of "Palais Royal," or "Rue de Rivoli," and was intended more for protection than for artistic effect. Such a medley of wrappings, piled one over the other, some of them fastened together, and others in neglige, none but a genuine European could have affected! Taken altogether, with her tall figure, dark complexion, heavy brows, piercing eyes, and gruff, yet kindly voice, our self-constituted protec tress presented quite a striking picture, somewhat, we must confess, after the Hogarth, or Thomas Hood style.

Higher and higher loomed up the long Alpine range, as we neared Susa, in the dusk of evening. It was quite night when we reached that place; the atmos phere had grown colder, indicating the vi cinity of icy summits; but all around was now darkness. After a long delay at the

post-house, we were crammed into the crowded interior of the Diligence, much to our fear lest the immense amount of luggage piled on the top, might crush in the roof upon our defenceless heads. The vehicle, clumsy and ponderous, proved stronger than we had imagined, and, except the crushing crowd within, we got on at a comfortable rate. That we were obliged to cross the Alps in the night, was much regretted, but as no other arrangement could be effected, we consoled ourselves with the thought that we had the moon in our favor, which was, under the circumstances, an agreeable consideration.

On ascending to the snowy region, we were transferred to well warmed sledges, (constructed similar to our northern winter stages) and then the effect of moonthe scene was quite bewitch

road, we encountered a heavy train of sleds laden with large boxes of merchandize. To extricate ourselves from this dilemma seemed a dubious undertaking; but thanks to the skill of mountaineer drivers, the passage was successfully accomplished, though not without considerable delay. After being drawn as near the inner bank of the road as possible, the mules were unfastened from the sledges, and used in helping drag the heavy boxes over the very edge of the abyss, so narrow was the road at this point. Sitting there cramped between mules and freightage, in a state of alarm lest these strong boxes might break through the side of our sledge, as they went grinding along, now and then thumping against the corners, and now rubbing along the whole length of the vehicle; the tramp of animals, and cries of the drivers, taken altogether,

light up train of sledges consisted of formed anything rather than an agreeable

twelve, with forty mules, all the leaders wearing bells, large and musical in sound, whose clear ring reverberated sweetly in the still air, as we glided along through the snow, a wall of the frozen element on one side, higher than the top of our sledges, and the other edge of the road retreating down precipices and chasms ever yawning to engulf the careless traveller, who ventures too near the dizzy steeps.

What a contrast was this Arctic scene, to the green carpeted earth, the springing flowers, soft, balmful airs, and fervid sunshine of southern Italy, whose borders we had left so recently! Occasionally an Alpine horn rang out a lengthened peal. which reverberated from steep to steep, and added much to the picturesque effect of the scene snow and ice, and cold; dark crags all around! A frozen world, hidden away in these solitudes of nature, where she sat enthroned in one of her sterner moods. The effect was wonderful and sublime, as something new in experience, but the thought of life, connected with these solitary post-houses, scattered along the route, (the only habitations of living beings) made one shudder and inwardly thank God for the wide awake, stirring world, towards which we were none too rapidly moving!

In one of the narrowest passes of the

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This difficulty overcome, we slid along smoothly enough, and soon exchanged snow and runners for wheels and good solid earth. While dismounting to effect this arrangement, we were left standing in a wilderness of legs and heels belonging to the mules and horses collected around the post-house or shed. Frightened and irresolute, we stood, not knowing which way to turn, as the prospect of feeling the weight of those iron-shod feet, seemed about equal on all sides, when we were suddenly clutched by our gruff-voiced friend, who began crying out in alarm, "Mon Dieu! les Cheveux! le Cheveux!" Extricated from our somewhat perillous position, we were once more en routepassing on to Lanslebourg, where we breakfasted at a dirty inn; hurried again on board the Diligence, and passing along through grand and wonderful mountain scenery, snow-tipped peaks, dark ravines, sparkling waterfalls; now massive fortifications of the time of Napoleon I., and here and there a hamlet, or occasionally a larger village. Thus we passed on to St. Jean de Maurienne; the highest point over which we had travelled being 6,800 feet above the sea level.

Our last recollections of the gruff-voiced friend were of seeing her exercise a com

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