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of course he thinks them very ill done. He mentioned something of this kind lately in a letter to court, and I had a reprimand from the minister there—very gentle indeed— but still it was a reprimand; and I had resolved to resign, when I received a private letter, before which I humbled myself, and adored the wise, the noble, the exalted genius which.dictated it—which endeavour, ed to soothe my painful sensibility— exprefied an approbation of my schemes, and an opinion of their weight and influence;—condescending to enquire into business, as well as to examine the ideas of an impetuous tuous young man. How I am exhorted, not to extinguish this fire, but to soften it, and keep it within due bounds, that it may be productive of good! So now I am no longer at variance with myself, but settled, determined—at least for a week to come. Content and peace of mind are valuable things, my dear friend; but if they are precious, they are also transitory.
February to. ^""^ OD bless you, my dear friends?
^-^ and may he grant to you that happiness which he denies to me!
1 thank you, Albert, for having de.ceived me.—I waited for the weddingday to be fixed, and on that day I intended with solemnity to have taken -dear Charlotte's profile from the wall, and with some other papers to have buried it. You are now united, and her picture still remains there. Well, let it remains Why mould it not? Does not Charlotte find room for me in her heart? Yes, you may allow me to occupy the second place there, and I will, I ought to keep it; I ihould become furious if she could forget——Albert, that thought is lell.—May you be happy, Albert!— Charlotte, angel of light, may you &e the happiest of women!
LETTER LETT E R XLV.
March ir. T H AV E just had an adventure ■*■ which will drive me from hence: I lose all patience.—Death!—it is not to be remedied, and you only are the caufr of all this »—you that drove me on, and urged and tormented me i —. you that made me take an employment I am by no means fit for. 1 have great reason now to be satisfied—so have you! But that I may not again be told, that the impetuosity of my temper ruins every thing, I here send you, Sir, a plain and simple narration of the affair, as any mere chronicler of
facts would relate it.
The Count of O— likes mt, d;C tinguifhes me; it is known that he does; I have mentioned it to you a hundred times. Yesterday I dined with him; it was the day on which all the nobility meet at his house. I never once dreamed of the assembly, nor that we subalterns were excluded. In short I dined with the Count, and after dinner we went into the hall, and talked and walked backwards and forwards. Colonel B. who came in, joined in the conversation, and the time passed away till the company came. God knows I was thinking of nothing! when entered the right noble and right honourable Lady of T—% accompanied