Thirteen summers have waved round us, thirteen winters shower'd their snows, Thirteen springs danced by, and thirteen autumns pass’d like music's close, Since I witness'd gloom like this, wherein the stoutest heart would melt: Thick close darkness on our eyelids weighing_darkness that is felt. Oh, the memory of that midnight, spectre-like, within me sleeps; If I only gaze, it rises dimly from my spirit's deeps— Rises with the sere elm forests struck by fitful gusts of wind, And the hollow drifting raindrops on the casement close | behind : Every wind-moan finds an echo in my moaning heart within, And the rain is not as dewdrops to a soul once scarr'd with sin. Brother, thou wert ever to me as a young and golden mist Floating through blue liquid heavens, with the morning sun light kiss'd; Which the eye looks up and blesses, lingering on its track above, With an old familiar fondness and an earnestness of love. Brother, I to thee was ever as a storm-cloud on the hills, Lowering o'er the rocks and caverns and the laughter of the rills: Yet I've thought at times, my brother, from the sunshine of thy life, Passing rainbow gleams have fallen on my spirit-world of strife : For when every fount was wormwood, every star had ceased to shine, It was bliss in dreams to ponder how unlike thy lot to mine. Yet, in childhood, I remember how our sainted mother said Often on bright Sabbath eves, and thrice upon her dying bedThat far scenes would crowd upon her, when she look'd on me and thee, In the distance, dream-like dawning, from the glorious dream-countree. She was kneeling, as she told us, at her Saviour's blessed feetLeaning on her harp, which warbled (as she knelt) heaven's music sweet But the thrill of that communion, and the smiles that on her fell, And the melody of worship, words, she said, might never tell. Still the dream grew clear and clearer, softer still that music's tone, And she saw she was not kneeling in that glorious light alone: For beside her were two spirits (well she knew them), I and thou; Life and light and love, all blended, like soft rainbows, on our brow. And like us in blest communion kneeling, singing as we sung, On the hand of each of us a gentler lovelier angel hung. Often since I've mused, my brother, when my heart was rent, if this Were a heaven-sent dream, prophetic of a far-off home of bliss, at dawn. Weep not, brother! thou hast found that angel of the far-off land, Whom our mother saw there kneeling, gently clinging to thy hand. I, too, have a tale to tell thee (would that it may end in light), Though a tale of sin and sorrow, I can better tell at night. Who could speak of sad hearts broken by himself, of tear drown'd eyes, And of wither'd hopes and feelings, underneath blue laughing skies ? Sorrow clings to sorrow's raiment-grief must have her twilight wanMoan, ye winds and woods and waves, and let the embers smoulder on. Gaze with me a moment down the billowy ocean of our life, Which with tears and fitful radiance seems mysteriously rife: In the distance, like the earliest flush of morning o'er the hills, Even here, through cloud and gloom, a dewy mellow light Still it grows upon my sight intensely beautiful and grand, From the land of childhood streaming, childhood's golden distils. faery-land : When Time went on sunshine wheels, on wings of breezy joyaunce by, Every feeling, like the sky-lark, from the earth and to the sky. Then, perchance, no human seer that look'd upon our reck less brow, Could have prophesied the diverse pathway we are travelling now. But the first black cloud that shadow'd childhood's blue pellucid years, Gloom'd, rose, cover'd, broke upon us with a sudden dash of tears Gloom’d upon the morn, the tidings of our father's victory came, Earn'd with precious drops of blood—the dew, an' if ye will, of fame; Broke—the next sad post a letter, edged with black, too surely told That his heart was still for ever, and his lips for ever cold. |