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lively and poetic imagination, but of deep and holy feeling, that he thus sang :—

How happy are they Who the Saviour obey,

And have laid up their treasure above!

Tongue cannot express The sweet comfort and peace
Of a soul in its earliest love.

That comfort was mine, When the favour divine
I first found in the blood of the Lamb;

When my heart it believed, What a joy I received,
What a heaven, in Jesus's name!

'Twas a heaven below My Saviour to know;
The angels could do nothing more

Than fall at his feet, And the story repeat,

And the Lover of sinners adore.

Jesus all the day long Was my joy and my song;

O that all his salvation might see!

"He hath loved me," I cried, "He hath suffer'd and died, To redeem such a rebel as me!"

On the wings of his love I was carried above
All sin, and temptation, and pain;

I could not believe, That I ever should grieve,
That I ever should suffer again.

I rode on the sky, Freely justified I!
Nor envied Elijah his seat;

My soul mounted higher, In a chariot of fire,
And the moon it was under my feet.

O the rapturous height Of that holy delight,
Which I felt in the life-giving blood!

Of my Saviour possess'd, I was perfectly bless'd,
As if fill'd with the fulness of God.

A few extracts from his journal will best show the spirit by which he was actuated; the manner in which he spent his time; the opposition which he had to encounter; the success with which his efforts to convert others were crowned; and the unction from God which rested upon the people around him. Among other persons who received spiritual benefit from his instrumentality at this time, were the learned Mr. Ainsworth, already mentioned; Mr. Piers, the Vicar of Bexley; Mr. John Byrom, the poet of Manchester, author of a system of short-hand, who was a member of the

University of Cambridge; and different members of the Delamotte family at Blendon.

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May 24th. I was much pleased to-day at the sight of Mr. Ainsworth; a little child, full of grief, and fears, and love. At our repeating the line of the hymn,

'Now descend and shake the earth,'*

he fell down, as in an agony.

"May 26th. We joined this morning in supplication for the poor malefactors, while passing to execution; and in the sacrament commended their souls to Christ. The great comfort we found therein made us confidently hope, some of them were received as the penitent thief at the last hour.

"I dined with great liberty of spirit, being amazed to find my old enemy, Intemperance, so suddenly subdued, that I have almost forgot I was ever in bondage to him.

"May 27th. I felt a motion of anger from a trifling disappointment; but it was no sooner felt than conquered.

"June 3d. In the evening Mr. Brown, Holland, and others, called. I was very averse to coming among them; but forced myself to it, and spent two or three hours in singing, reading, and prayer. This exercise a little revived me, and I found myself much assisted to pray. We asked particularly, that, if it was the will of God, some one might now receive the atonement. While I was yet speaking the words, Mr. Brown found power to believe. He rose, and told me, my prayer was heard, and answered in him. We were all full of joy and thanksgiving. Before we parted, I prayed with Mr. Brown, and praised God, to the great confirmation of my faith. The weight was quite taken off. I found power to pray with great earnestness.

"June 5th. I waked thankful, with power to pray and praise. I had peace at the sacrament, and some attention in public prayer. In the afternoon I met Mrs. Sims, with Mr. and Mrs. Burton, at Islington. He told me God had given him faith while I was praying the last night; but he thought it would do hurt to declare it then. Upon finding his heart burn within him, he desired God would give him some token of his faith, and immediately opened on, 'Let there be light; and there was light.' We rejoiced together in

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prayer and singing; and left the rest of the company much stirred up to wait for the same unspeakable gift.

"June 7th. Returning home, I found Dr. Byrom; and, in defiance of the tempter, simply told him the great things Jesus had done for me and many others. This drew on a full explanation of the doctrine of faith, which he received with wonderful readiness. Toward midnight I slept in peace. "June 8th. I took coach for Blendon, with Mr. Bray. I had much talk with a lady about the fall, and faith in Christ. She openly maintained the merit of good works. I would that all who oppose the righteousness of faith were so ingenuous: then would they no longer seek it as it were by the works of the law. Before seven we came to Eltham. In riding thence to Blendon, I was full of delight, and seemed in a new heaven and a new earth. We prayed, and sang, and shouted all the way. We found Miss Betsy and Hetty at home, and prayed that this day salvation might come to this house. In the lesson were these words, This is the accepted time; this is the day of salvation.'

"June 9th. I prayed with fervour for the family. The second lesson was blind Bartimeus. In riding to Bexley with Mr. Piers, I spake of my experience with simplicity and confidence, and found him very ready to receive the faith. We spent the day in the same manner; Mr. Bray relating the inward workings of God upon his soul; and I, the great things he had lately done for me, and our friends at London. He listened eagerly to all that was said, not making the least objection; but confessing, it was what he had never experienced. We walked, and sang, and prayed in the garden. He was greatly moved, and testified his full conviction, and desire of finding Christ; 'but I must first,' said he, ' prepare myself by long exercise of prayer and good works.'

"At night we joined in prayer for Hetty. Never did I pray with greater earnestness, expecting an immediate answer, and being much disappointed at not finding it. I was in great heaviness for her, and could not sleep till morning. Waking full of desire for her conversion, those words. were brought to my remembrance: The Spirit and the bride say, Come; and let him that heareth say, Come; and whosoever will, let him come, and take of the water of life freely.' Yesterday Miss Betsy plainly informed me, that after

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her last receiving the sacrament, she had heard a voice, 'Go thy way; thy sins are forgiven thee;' and was filled thereby with joy unspeakable. She said within herself, 'Now I do indeed feed upon Christ in my heart by faith;' and continued all the day in the spirit of triumph and exultation. All her life, she thought, would be too little to thank God for that day; yet soon after this it was that the enemy got so great advantage over her, in making her oppose the truth with such fierceness. For many days she did not know that she had in herself demonstration of that she denied. But after we had prayed that God would clear up his own work, the darkness dispersed, and those fears that her conversion was not real, by little and little were all done away.

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"June 10th. In the morning lesson was that glorious description of the power of faith, Mark xi. 22-24. pleaded this promise in behalf of our seeking friends, particularly Hetty and Mr. Piers. He came with his wife. The day before our coming he had been led to read the Homily on Justification, which convinced him, that in him dwelt no good thing. Now he likewise saw that the thoughts of his heart were only evil continually; forasmuch as whatsoever is not of faith is sin. He asked of God to give him some comfort, and found it in Luke v. 23, &c.: Whether is easier to say, Thy sins be forgiven thee; or to say, Rise up and walk?' This was the very miracle, I told him, from which God had shown his intention to heal me; and it was a sign of the like to be done for him. Mr. Bray moved for retiring to prayer. We prayed after God again and again, and asked him whether he believed Christ could just now manifest himself to his soul. He answered, 'Yes.' We read him the promise made to the prayer of faith. Mr. Bray bade me speak some promise to him authoritatively, and he should find Christ make it good. I had not faith to do it. He made me pray again, and then read the sixty-fifth psalm. I felt every word of it for my friend; particularly, Thou that hearest the prayer, unto thee shall all flesh come. Blessed is the man whom thou choosest, and receivest unto thee. He shall dwell in thy court, and shall be satisfied with the plenteousness of thy house, even of thy holy temple. Thou shalt show us wonderful things in thy righteousness, O God of our salvation, thou that art the hope of all the ends of the earth.'

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"Seeing the great confidence of Mr. Bray, and the deep humility of Mr. Piers, I began to think the promise would be fulfilled before we left the room. My fellow-worker with God seemed full of faith, and of the Holy Ghost; and told him, 'If you can but touch the hem of his garment, you shall be made whole.'

"We prayed for him a third time, the Spirit greatly helping our infirmities; and then asked if he believed. He answered, 'Yes' the Spirit witnessing with our spirits, that his heart was as our heart. Bray said, 'I now know of a truth that Christ is in you.' We were all filled with joy. We returned thanks, and prayed for a blessing upon his ministry; and then brought him down in triumph. Miss Betsy was greatly strengthened hereby, and bold to confess she 'believed.' All her speech now was, 'I only hope that I shall never lose this comfort.'

"The day was spent in prayer and conference. Mrs. Piers was with all ease convinced of unbelief. After supper I discoursed on faith from the lesson. The poor servants received the word gladly.

"June 11th. While Mr. Piers was preaching upon death, I found great joy in feeling myself willing, or rather desirous, to die. After prayers we joined in intercession for Mr. and Mrs. Delamotte; then for poor Hetty. I received much comfort in reading Luther. We took coach for church. In singing I observed Hetty join with a mixture of fear and joy. I earnestly prayed, and expected she should meet with something to confirm her in the service. Both the psalms and lessons were full of consolation.

"We adjourned to Mr. Piers's, and joined in prayer for a poor woman in despair, one Mrs. Searl, whom Satan had bound these many years. I saw her pass by in the morning, and was touched with a sense of her misery. After pleading His promise of being with us to the end of the world, we went down to her in the name of Jesus. I asked her whether she thought God was LOVE, and not ANGER, as Satan would persuade her. Then I preached the Gospel, which she received with all imaginable eagerness. When we had for some time continued together in prayer, she rose up another creature, strongly and explicitly declaring her faith in the blood of Christ, and full persuasion that she was accepted in the

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